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The Manual and “Premeditated Resentment”

Having a manual for others is one of the most damaging things we can do to ourselves and to our relationships.

I know, I am speaking from experience here.

The manual is a book of expectations that we have for others.  It’s our manual, but it’s for them. They don’t even know we have it  We feel like they should just know.

In fact, if we have to actually tell them, we make that mean something.  I mean after all, I they loved us, they “should” know.

The manual describes how we would like this person the behave so that we can feel good, feel better and be happy.  It seems harmless, and we feel justified to have these expectations of other people.  I mean, don’t we have a right to expect things from our spouse, our friends, our boss or our co-workers.

Yes, but…

Here’s the problem…

Any time our happiness is tied to someone else’s behavior or our expectation of what they should do, or how they should act, we are sure to be disappointed.  In fact, I think having a manual for someone is “premeditated resentment.”

…and, it’s giving all of our power to someone else, and they have no idea what to do with it.

“Other people’s behavior has no impact on us until we think about it, interpret it and choose to make it mean something.”-Brooke Castillo, The Life Coach School.

Here are a few of my manual expectations:

  • He should act more cheerful when I call
  • He should call me more
  • He should help me with the horses
  • He should walk the dogs once in a while
  • He should be more understanding when I am feeling overwhelmed
  • He should hold my hand more often
  • He should plan more dates
  • He should offer to help me, he knows how much my life has changed moving here
  • He should…

These are all thoughts that were causing resentment.  I was not only wallowing in it, I was smearing it everywhere I could.  I was dragging it with me to every conversation when I was describing “how things were going.”  I was walking the dogs in resentment, I was cleaning stalls in resentment. I was describing my life in resentment.

Every single time he failed, according to my manual, I could feel more and more resentment building.  Spontaneous combustion was right around the corner.

We think that if someone knows us and loves us that they should just know and if they know, they should just do.  When they don’t, we pout, we sulk, we show up snarky, we close down, we start looking for evidence that we are right and they are wrong.  We roll around in self-doubt and self-pity, disappointment and resentment.  We go down a road that is a path to relationship destructions.

We don’t even know that we are showing up creepy and needy when we do this crap.

I stopped the pity party and started seeing that even if he would have done all of those things, I would still not be happy.  That’s my job, my responsibility.

When you are in a space that you just aren’t happy, you really think that someone or something can bring it up for you.  They can’t, nothing can, it’s your job, it’s your responsibility.

When we have a manual for someone, it’s just a matter of time before they let us down, don’t do what they should or say what they should, act how they should.  It’s just a matter of time before you start resenting.

Click here to watch Transformation Tuesday Facebook Live replay where I talk about expectation hangover and the manual and how it is “premeditated resentment.”

When you find yourself going down the road of executing a manual, here is help.  This worksheet will help you define the manual you have for someone so you can throw it out.

Welcome to “Emotional Adulthood.”  Ready to go deeper?

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